Slaughter me, rip out my soul.. Just push my chest cavity until it cracks and gives way.. Break my fingers and toes with a scissor wrench.. rub my shins with a piece of wood until they bleed.. cut my akilies tendon with shears, then pluck each individual hair from me skin with pliers. Annihilate me, then rip my flesh from my body as i lay.. Beat me, mistreat me.. fucking abuse me.. Kill me.. Put me through a narcistic trial.. Am I a masochist.. or are you just facist.. Tears? streams of pain - joy? Make sure you drink my tears to nullify the taste of bile in your mouth from my death.. Make it slow and painful, so I can feel my life seep away..


Forget me.. I am it.. that thing.. fuck....

It's almost Easter, tomorrow to be infact. It's 11:52PM and I've been sick all week, the flu or something. I've had headaches (migraine for 5 days) and I've been very dizzy, especially when I move.

On a lighter side, I got my angel a prom dress and I am going to be fit for a black tuxedo with a red cumberbun.

You guys should really check out this girls artwork --

Also, there was this girl I met a long long time ago, around 2 years ago, and her name is Jackie, and we've been dating for almost 1y 3m.

Btw, her dA account is

(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth, to the best of my ability.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.

I had an ok Thanksgiving, went to Florida, traffic sucked, but it was Ok, I missed my 'ackie.

I tell you, my family pushes me to the point of utter hatred, and today.. Today they pushed too far.. I'm done being their child.. My "friends", I'm done acting like a fucking nice guy to them.. I'm tired of being the nice guy.. I'm fucking tired of caring for people and not getting anything back.. All I need is my Jackie..